(Saturday Night from Martha)
The long holiday weekend has slowed down reception of lab results, thus – we still have no final definitive diagnosis of the type of leukemia Reid is going to beat.
The wait frustrates all of us – including his Doc – who wants to start treatment. Meanwhile, it affords Reid time to slip in and out of snoozing. His morale is generally good, though the sore throat still plagues him. He’s got such a great sense of humor – wicked and quick. It comes through at just the right moments. And yet, he’s mainly sweet – letting me crawl into bed next to him and snuggling in together. He appears to be the one among us who is best at not getting too far ahead of things.
Bethany has been here during waking hours yesterday and today – watching and helping with Reid, and herding me toward food and rest. She’s been a wonderful resource and support. She’s sharp – and maternal in BIG ways. Her heart seems to expand while taking care of people she loves. We’re so lucky for her….
Today, Jarrett and Daria showed up with their own brand of loving – very gentle, plenty of humor and soft eyes on everyone around them. The relief I felt upon seeing them both with baskets in hand and arms outstretched was HUGE!
I put out a call for people to come be here, to help me “team up” in this process – and the response has been wonderful. Stefan was here earlier. Dennis is here tonight (and taking Reid’s side on all things that Reid is annoyed with Mom about!) – and the calendar that Carolyn is coordinating is a testament to the movement that’s occurring. I had no idea how far away Portland could feel, and knowing that so many of you are making space to come be with Reid fills me with immeasurable gratitude.
Meanwhile – at home Pete and the girls are hanging in. Ginny is “freaked out” – her words, but being sweet and upbeat. Sarah is a rock. Her matter of fact Facebook posting today said it all about her – and her attitude – no nonsense Gracie, and not accepting the horror stories that “friends” feel compelled to share with her. She’s so excited to start high school on Tuesday …. and soccer is her outlet. Hug her when you see her. The girls…well, it’s a fine line – right? I know everyone will figure out how to love them and be positive – without making them scared by all the attention….
Okay – I’m rambling a bit –
it just seemed like – in the absence of medical news – I could fill you in on the rest of the story. And now I really must go attempt to sleep. Wanting and needing to sleep are obvious, getting the demons to back down for a few hours is a little more difficult, but I’m determined.
So – dear ones. I love you. Thank you. Kiss the ones that you love – make small prayers in each breath you take – send them out on the September sunlight – be well.